Lithium... Take 2

In a desperate panic I called Zacks doctor Tuesday night, it had been going on weeks of what had/has been incrediably painful moments where I completely realized something is really wrong with my son. His doctor has disagreed with many times with my refusal to put Zack on Lithium, he indulged me in trying drug after countless drug all in the avoidance of the dreaded Lithium. Yes it the blood draws, how horriable those are going to be, and all the research I have done but it was the fear, the fear that if that drug didnt work nothing would and I really didnt want to have the feeling that there is nothing left to try. That if this hardcore, mood stabilizing Bi-Polar drug didnt work, what would be left for me to do??

It all came to a head Tuesaday night as Zack sat in the the backseat of the car and repeated some unintelageable word over and over again, I saw it, that this, all of this wasnt fair to him, he is suffering, hes afraid, hes angry, hes confused, he is out of control, and so I made the decision to start Lithium.

I left a frantic message on his doctors cell and by 10 am on Wed. The script was in the pharmacy and I knew by that night I would be trying something that I have deemed the last resort. I had a million questions, so many possiable side effects...his doctor doesnt believe that this has to be a permanent thing that maybe in an few years if/when he is stable it could be tapered and maybe replaced with a lesser drug, I sure is hell hope so, but what I hope more then anything right now is that my son, my heart recieve some relief, I am makeing sure to be keeping him hydrated and staying away from caffine and not changing any salt intake, "keep this as they are in regaurds to his diet, just make sure he stays hydrated during his tae kwan do and play times" so that is what Im going to do, and pray that my Last resort drug brings us all a little peace and possiably a happier Holiday season, prayers welcome as so is any advice for anyone who has a child on Lithium, hes 7, Im sure I have said that before, he also wieghs 85 pounds so he is not small by anymeans, but hes not a grown up either...okay, thanks to all who have read this.

Love, Zacks mom

Lithium

I have exhausted all of the options, last night in cries of despair, the dreaded words that I hadnt heard in nearly a year, "I want to kill myself, just kill me please, please kill me", his dx adhd, with bipolar traits since you cant dx a 7 yr old as bipolar, but considering he has(d)2 parents with bipolar odds stand pretty well that he too has this dreaded disease, his dr really wants him on the Lithium as his moods and behaior are completely unstable, hes hypersexual, rageful, anxious, fits of tears and panic non stop movement, getting in trouble in school, ... and know as I type hes starting to have a fit so I must sign off...encouragement...advice on blood draws, I cant beleieve this is happening.
zacks mom